I was so happy for you reading this ....I think you've turned a corner....as you say, it's not disloyal to either John or Sarah to suddenly find you've been happy doing something creative that you've
"lost" yourself in or noticing that you've felt completely happy again, even just for a few minutes or hours and being surprised that its been without the crushing, all present sense of grief. No one gets "over" the loss of our loved ones but you've started to find acceptance and discover pleasure in life again. Your new fitness regime and dog training ( good luck with that one !!) is such a positive sign of hope for the future....I'm really proud of you ...much love Lee xxx
So sad to read of your grief, Jo. As an aside, I can tell you that BLS, in the medical world, stands for basic life support. Perhaps that’s what your brown chair gives you on those days when things are just a bit too much. Sending a hug xx
I love that idea Rachel, I think you are right. It is now getting very battered as the dogs use it as well, I can occasionally just fit me, one french bulldog, and 1 & 1/2 labradors - one has to keep his hind legs on the floor.
I think we all need a place where it is ok to sit, contemplate and sometimes allow ourselves to wallow. 😘😘
Happy to hear you had a lovely sociable and creative week last week, Jo. It sounds just right.
The London barrier makes perfect sense. I’m here for a Tate trip whenever you might feel like it, but I also understand why if you never feel like it. xx
Psychological barriers? I have many, most having to do with neglecting to do things that really need to be done. Worse, and I believe it's depression, I really don't care if I get them done or not.
Do antthing? Yes, when I force myself.
At peace? Yeah, mostly. But that's what's great about being 79. If I just stare at the 65" TV my friends gave me nothing else is visible. Who needs a movie theater when you have a huge screen in the living room?
I've loved city life most of my life but that love has turned into frustration and disgust because of the problem of American Greed that prevents doing anything enjoyable after monthly costs.
I won't go into current politics. It's all too negatively repetitious. I'm now excited by what my decades long hero Bernie Sanders and others are doing that brings thousands of a normal, diverse population to nonpolitical rallies against the building of the Fourth Reich that makes Hitler look like an amateur.
Bernie Sanders and the HANDS-OFF protests are proving we're not going to allow our Democracy to be stolen and our Constitution being trashed and rewritten by a large group that dares to call themselves Christians.
Some folks believe our now former Allies won't forgive us for putting a moron in our Whitehouse again. I disagree. Lies and manipulation going full speed ahead gave fear the upper hand.
Jo, you already know all the details. Your continuing to see me as an online friend is just one example of the millions of people we've enjoyed international Democracy with. That can't be changed.
I also appreciate that you make up your own decisions of how you will live your life. I've been equally independent since childhood. My Ma called me stubborn. I was just me and no one could change that
Hi Richard, hopefully the tide is turning. People like you make all the difference. I know how tough life is for you yet you also want to make a better world. Look after yourself 😘😘😘
Interesting post....and huge congrats on your 3rd draft. It´s interesting that London is so wrapped up with John and Sarah....it´s such a huge place. I just wonder if you could recapture London, by recovering a different part of it...seeing something like an exhibition which didn´t exist before. There are so many Londons....but perhaps that area could be YOUR London. Or treat yourself to something you´d look forward to there...a writer´s meet up perhaps? Re-connection with an old friend? Or a new friend? Something personal to you, to your core....Just a thought...
So pleased you had a fulfilling week last week Jo and I feel it's perfectly understandable why you're not ready to go to London at the minute. I wouldn't call it a psychological block, more an emotional feeling and perfectly natural. I've learned it's best to be guided by my body as my mind sometimes wants to do things my body isn't ready for. I often don't know why it isn't ready, but I can feel it. I've had some deep sadness on my heart for over a week and I've no idea why; I can feel it waiting to be expressed at some point. Go easy on yourself Jo; when you're ready, you'll catch a train into London with the love of John and Sarah in your heart. No rush...wishing you a happy week xx
Dearest Jo
I was so happy for you reading this ....I think you've turned a corner....as you say, it's not disloyal to either John or Sarah to suddenly find you've been happy doing something creative that you've
"lost" yourself in or noticing that you've felt completely happy again, even just for a few minutes or hours and being surprised that its been without the crushing, all present sense of grief. No one gets "over" the loss of our loved ones but you've started to find acceptance and discover pleasure in life again. Your new fitness regime and dog training ( good luck with that one !!) is such a positive sign of hope for the future....I'm really proud of you ...much love Lee xxx
Thanks Lee, I let you know about the dog training 😂😂😘
So sad to read of your grief, Jo. As an aside, I can tell you that BLS, in the medical world, stands for basic life support. Perhaps that’s what your brown chair gives you on those days when things are just a bit too much. Sending a hug xx
I love that idea Rachel, I think you are right. It is now getting very battered as the dogs use it as well, I can occasionally just fit me, one french bulldog, and 1 & 1/2 labradors - one has to keep his hind legs on the floor.
I think we all need a place where it is ok to sit, contemplate and sometimes allow ourselves to wallow. 😘😘
Happy to hear you had a lovely sociable and creative week last week, Jo. It sounds just right.
The London barrier makes perfect sense. I’m here for a Tate trip whenever you might feel like it, but I also understand why if you never feel like it. xx
Thanks Hannah I am absolutely determined to make The Tate this year 😘😘
Psychological barriers? I have many, most having to do with neglecting to do things that really need to be done. Worse, and I believe it's depression, I really don't care if I get them done or not.
Do antthing? Yes, when I force myself.
At peace? Yeah, mostly. But that's what's great about being 79. If I just stare at the 65" TV my friends gave me nothing else is visible. Who needs a movie theater when you have a huge screen in the living room?
I've loved city life most of my life but that love has turned into frustration and disgust because of the problem of American Greed that prevents doing anything enjoyable after monthly costs.
I won't go into current politics. It's all too negatively repetitious. I'm now excited by what my decades long hero Bernie Sanders and others are doing that brings thousands of a normal, diverse population to nonpolitical rallies against the building of the Fourth Reich that makes Hitler look like an amateur.
Bernie Sanders and the HANDS-OFF protests are proving we're not going to allow our Democracy to be stolen and our Constitution being trashed and rewritten by a large group that dares to call themselves Christians.
Some folks believe our now former Allies won't forgive us for putting a moron in our Whitehouse again. I disagree. Lies and manipulation going full speed ahead gave fear the upper hand.
Jo, you already know all the details. Your continuing to see me as an online friend is just one example of the millions of people we've enjoyed international Democracy with. That can't be changed.
I also appreciate that you make up your own decisions of how you will live your life. I've been equally independent since childhood. My Ma called me stubborn. I was just me and no one could change that
Thank you, as always, for being my friend.
Richard
Hi Richard, hopefully the tide is turning. People like you make all the difference. I know how tough life is for you yet you also want to make a better world. Look after yourself 😘😘😘
Interesting post....and huge congrats on your 3rd draft. It´s interesting that London is so wrapped up with John and Sarah....it´s such a huge place. I just wonder if you could recapture London, by recovering a different part of it...seeing something like an exhibition which didn´t exist before. There are so many Londons....but perhaps that area could be YOUR London. Or treat yourself to something you´d look forward to there...a writer´s meet up perhaps? Re-connection with an old friend? Or a new friend? Something personal to you, to your core....Just a thought...
Thanks Susannah, I will get back to London at some point. It holds wonderful and painful memories. Thanks for your advice 😘😘😘
So pleased you had a fulfilling week last week Jo and I feel it's perfectly understandable why you're not ready to go to London at the minute. I wouldn't call it a psychological block, more an emotional feeling and perfectly natural. I've learned it's best to be guided by my body as my mind sometimes wants to do things my body isn't ready for. I often don't know why it isn't ready, but I can feel it. I've had some deep sadness on my heart for over a week and I've no idea why; I can feel it waiting to be expressed at some point. Go easy on yourself Jo; when you're ready, you'll catch a train into London with the love of John and Sarah in your heart. No rush...wishing you a happy week xx
Thank you Karen, very good advice 😘😘
Ps please don't think I believe I'm the fount of all knowledge, but sometimes we can be so hard on ourselves when gentleness is what we need 🤗
I would never think that Karen, but you are a wise one 😘😘